Still Got My Groove On!

(pic by Derrick McCall)

I know I've been down lately but it's just the job issues, my dad's health and my pointless diet. The job I'm just going have to do, come in early, leave on time, and deal with the peeps in this joint. What can I do? I flush 5 times. I keep to myself. I'm in fear of being censored because when the last hire resigned, she told HR that she didn't like the treatment the department received and since I am one of two remaining in the dept. I was dragged to the interrogation room for a little censorship talk. I'm resigned to it. What can you do? Keeping my head down low and staying out of trouble. I know the employment market is tough and I only need one job so I guess I'll hold on to the rope for a while and fantasize about pristine beaches, while stuck in a storm in the sea.

My dad, who I love dearly, has managed to get me worried sick. He's been a little crazy lately. He forgets important things like his medication. Sometimes he hurts himself and can't feel it. The Docs attribute that to poor circulation. Well, he is independent and doesn't want my help, so I can only do so much. My parents may be the most stubborn people on earth I must get it from them. Well my dad's fifty something b-day is coming up already bought the gift and planned his Valentine surprise. I hope he likes it.

This diet is kicking my ass. I'm eating nothing. I'm low cal, no carb, and so miserable. I start of the day with some oatmeal, add a couple of walnuts and yes some real white processed sugar. I hate the fake stuff. After my oatmeal I try to avoid eating anything heavy until dinner and then I have protein and veggies. Last night was a strip steak with broccoli and I skipped lunch so I can splurge for dinner. Painful, I know I want to lose 15 pounds but how long can I keep this up. I've only lost 2 lbs since I started. OK only been doing this seriously for a week but still that is a long time for me. I love food. I am passionate about just about all cuisines. Is this what my thirties will have to offer--years of restraint, diet obsession. It almost feels like sex is the only indulgence I'm allowed. I shouldn't complain but if I had to chose losing 15lbs and booty, I would go with the booty everytime so I'm glad I can keep that one little indulgence.

Regardless of all my trials and tribulations, I managing to keep it together. I still feel pretty good and have my mighty Viking chasing me around. I haven't lost hope that I'll find a better gig. I just hope it happens sooner better than later. I am trying to be patient--it's so hard!