Flasher

On Saturday night I landed at a birthday party. All was well until I made my way to the ladies room. I opened the door started to apply lipstick and a woman who I met earlier walked in and proceeded to flash me and then ask what I thought of her breasts.

I wasn't ready for that. This was a 1st, so I blundered, tripped on my feet said they were OK and made a mad dash for the door only to be halted once again, as the discomfort grew, I prayed for someone else to walk in--didn't want any part of this. Not really attracted to women and this one didn't move me at all.

I felt claustrophobic and frustrated all at once, for maybe 2 minutes but I swear it could have been a lifetime. Yes, someone walked in and I took my hasty exit and avoided that chick like the plague for the rest of the night.

Lesson learned: Don't break the seal, until you are home--gotta keep those crazy women away.

The blues

You are what you make yourself. I have decided not to be beaten by an evil she/he manager, still manage to droul over the office hottie and keep the faith. Everything changes maybe in a week work life will be better or worse but I know I will work another day regardless of location.

FYI, I want to go to the beach but without all the strings attached and I'm not excited about being the scape goat for the fiasco. No good at taking the fall--if you push me I'll just push back, when I can't walk I'll run, and I'll never take what isn't given to me freely.

f%&*((^&^%^% WORK

Why am I always in these sucky work situations? I wonder if my aura calls for confrontation. Like my gig hate being micro-managed. For God's sake is there a job on earth that is suited for my skill set?

Almost want throw in the towel and become a buddist, live in a commune and say fuck western society and all of the work politics. So tired of this. Just wish I could see the light.

Chaiken the designer not chicken

Today I discovered the joy of sample sales. I landed two very beautiful cashmere sweaters for practically nothing. Who would have ever guessed?

love it love it.

On to more pressing matters, I was informed that someone in Florida won the NY lottery. I could swear this was my big win. Walked into the bodega with the tix in hand, thinking of how $2oo mil would change my life and the guy behind the counter informed me someone in Florida won. Why don't we have rules for that, let the Floridians play their own lottery. Outer staters will just effect the probability of me winning negatively.

I guess it's back to my working to pay the bills life, no summer homes, vacations, and excruciatingly expensive anything but if I won my world would be a better place. I'll keep the faith next time it will be my chance to win.